Tuesday, October 31, 2006

24th Birthday Bash... Jane was crashed

Thank you for coming on Saturday and your girls/guys definitely made my night. It was a short party indeed, I am soooo sorry!

I have to say sorry to everyone for the mess/trouble I created. I have to say a huge thank you to Sing Ling and Karen for fetching me home, giving me tablet, Gin Sing tea and holding my hair back when I threw up! OMG, I am not your close friend yet you did that, I was very touched and you girls are the best.

Thank you Mel for fetching me water, thank you Wei for holding my shoes and giving me a plastic bag with “holes”.

And STEPH! Yes, thank you for getting me drunk, you bugga, I never threw up over alcohol and you made my first!!!!

Ok here is the story of the night….

8:30pm – Decided to have some rice… I am sure I would be drinking

9.30pm – Head out to Luxxe

10.00pm – Got there, met up with Rose and the gang. They were shocked with what I was wearing, oh well, I rather show my body now when it is still good. I wont do it when I am in my 50s. Oh my

10.15pm – Managed to find the box seats, but there were a few people there. I asked and they didn’t mind to share so I brought the whole group in. I could feel that they were uncomfortable. Haha… they left

10.30pm – bought a Cosmo for the non drinkers to try, got 4 shots, Cecilia took two, Wangmun took one and I took one… bravo

11.00pm – Steph, Mel, Mich and Wei finally got there, wei with her gastric problem so she was exempted from drinking…

11.30pm – Steph dare me to drink tequila shots, oh well, that the heck. Just went for it… I believe someone will get me home safely, I trust the girls

11.15pm – downed 5 shots….damn. Steph wanted to do something kinky, Wei, Mich and Mel concurred.. Fine… lime on my cleavage and steph use her mouth to get it. OOO lala She made me hot! Oh no, I mean the shots…. I had to do something in return, so I made Steph to put salt on her lips and I take it from there.. Oh wow, those buggas didn’t get a good shot, they made me do it again. Ok, not my first time kissing a girl seriously…. :p

12am – In total, I have had 11/12 tequila shots…. I walked to the bathroom, Karen chased me and got me.. “Bluuueekk..” There goes my first puke… I am sorry Karen, I know I puked on your hand… Mel keep fetching me water… thanks!!! I think it gave me something to throw up.

After 1 more puke in the toilet and 1 on the table… I asked Sing Ling to send me home…. Wei snatched my shoes, she scared I would fall down, I even asked her not to loose my shoes, they are new Guess shoes! She almost knocked my head with my heels. Apparently I puked on her shoes too… argh..sorry! Bouncer friend came and asked if I was OK, I think I gave him a hug and a kiss… I couldn’t remember. Oh well, we crossed the road like we owned the road.

Wei passed me a bag…with holes, I threw it to Cecilia to tie up…bah still not very usable.

Sing Ling decided to go to Simon’s house to arrange the cars.

Somewhere near Albany Hwy, SL had to stop coz I need to threw up again. I remembered keep saying sorry to SL….Did I?

Got back to Simon’s house. According to Karen, Simon kept asking if I need a drink/food/whatever.. I just looked blankly…..oh hell, I really couldn’t remember that, I just remember someone was talking to me… CC climbed into my car, SL asked what the hell she’s doing, she said she wanted to sleep. SL kicked her out asked her to go to Simon’s car, then Wangmun sent her back to her car, poor CC, she was drunk too

Went to SL’s place, she gave me tablet and gin sing tea, sorry but I hate gin sing tea…made me feel worse… I am sorry!!!!

Threw up again on the way home, argh..my car… and splashed onto Karen again, you damn “suay” hey!

I managed to direct SL back to my house, I got down…didn’t even bother to lock my car and I said bye bye to them and went into the house straight…

Went into my room…undressed, walked into the bathroom…and had a shower, brushed my teeth, washed my face. Threw up again, damn… I just brushed my teeth. Went to the laundry, tried to find a small bale to bring to my bedroom, in case I wanted to puke again… and I did

I felt so miserable! Argh…felt like killing myself at that moment.

Woke up at 6:30am the next morning, felt good, felt awake, no hang over nothing… er,,, good tequila and good puking…

Called Karen at 7am to find out where was my wallet. Hahah… she said I am abnormal, how come I could get up so early when I was so drunk the night before. Wahaha

I carried on with washing my clothes, did my banking, cleaned my room, had another shower. Met up with a friend for coffee and pancakes, dinner with the girls, and movie with a friend. Wahaha.. I am immortal!

Again! Thank you very much to the girls! I promise I will behave next time!

I turned 24... Typical Scorpion

Oh, to be a deep and dark, sexy and mysterious Scorpio! A passionate, single-minded person capable of depths of emotions.

You need intensity the way flowers need rain. You have a sharp mind and . sometimes a sharp tongue. If someone can.t see the obvious, staring them in the face, you want to whip back the veils of illusion, to improve their view.

You want to go to the heart of every matter and you won.t shy away from the truth just because it.s not exactly what you or others want to hear. You.re a Water sign and ruled by Mars and Pluto.

Yes, you are sexy, because sexiness comes from being real - and that.s something that comes naturally to you . In fact, Scorpio rules detectives, undertakers and sex workers. Please don.t take offense! It.s just that you can be like a detective . going deeper and further into the shady alleys of existence, where lesser souls fear to tread.

Undertakers? You are less afraid than most others of the concept of mortality. In fact, it may even fascinate you. And sex workers? Scorpio rules sex, and not just the love-making side of it! You love what is hidden . you want to uncover it.

And you also love to hide. You like to be alone, with your thoughts, as much as you like to share others. c ompany. You are enigmatic and truly mysterious. Yes, you have that famous sting in your tail, but you are also a healer.

Spending time with a Scorpio is rewa rding. You may not always show your friends and lovers the .sunny. side of life, but with your ability to handle extremes and your capacity to feel profoundl y, you teach the rest of us a little more about what it means to be human - dark side and all.

Try not to be obsessive, though. Learn to forgive and forget w here possible. And allow your watery side to carry you along life.s ebb and flow.

You.re not interested in the superficial which is why your relationships run so deep. You relish privacy and can take a secret to the grave.

You have oceans of tolerance inside you, which is why people love to be around you. You accept what others find unacceptable. You make it OK to be scared. You don.t shy away from the shadow . rather you quest for truth. You.re not interested in skirting around tough subjects and .

If you are truly, madly, deeply Scorpionic . you may even be blessed with magical powers.

I think this is very accurate... Do you think so?

My birthday party dairy on its way...

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Random Ramblings

I think I am definitely ageing....

Now, I just need merely 6 hours sleep. I usually go to bed at 12:30am, wake up at 6:30am and dont feel tired/sleepy at all.

Last night, I was grumpy, so I went to bed at 11:15pm, I woke up even before the alarm, I woke up at 6am and I couldnt sleep after that!

Even on weekends, unless I go to bed in the morning like 4-5am, I would be up latest by 9am. Sometimes, even if I go to bed at 2-3am, I still wake up at 9am. What is wrong with me!

Met a SG guy the other day, he was working at Hyatt, I was there for lunch, wiating for someone. We got chatting, exchanged MSN...

One night.... on MSN

Yak yak yak.. Suddenly

SG guy: "BTW, you have nice headlights."

Me: "What?"

SG guy:" You have nice melons..."

Me: "My goodness, look... they are my breasts, it IS ok to call them my breasts. We are in 2006 and in Australia for God's sake."

I can't believe .... headlights and melons.... which century are we in now?


I learned something new:

所谓‘智慧’, 智是分别智, 慧是平等慧。

智是可以分别世间的事物,是善, 是恶,该做,不该做, 都需要用智去抉择

慧是平等慧, 平等就是视一切众生皆平等, 一切有生命的众生,我们都要尊重。

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Relationship - Rights and Wrongs

I remember an incident happened long time ago between Adrian and Me, of course, when we were together.

I just want to use this incident to reflect a recent incident happened to someone I know...

Adrian had to go back to SG and might not have the chance to get his PR in Perth, so I suggest to go to SG to work after my degree so that we could stay together. He didnt want that cause he said he would feel obligated to marry me if I go to SG for him.

So, the conclusion was, he couldnt stay on, he didnt want to work in Malaysia, he didnt want me to go to SG, so I assumed he wanted to break up.

At that moment, I understand that he didnt want to end up being the bad person when we break up; where I have made so much sacrifice for him and it didnt work out.

But he did not realise that he WAS already the bad person when he refused all the alternatives to stay together.

Sometimes, there are no rights and wrongs, good and bad in a relationship. As long as you love one whole heartedly, why do you have to feel bad when you end it? What did one do wrong to deserve to be treated unfairly that you dont give any alternatives to the relationship but to end it?

I think the most reasonable, untilmately legitimate reason to end a relationship is when you dont love the other anymore.

So think twice before you say "Break Up", think of an alternative, if that doesnt work, at least you have tried your best.

You may feel sad because you have lost someone so closed to you, this person has become another stranger, "The Most Familiar Stranger"; but no regret....

Monday, October 09, 2006

Cycle of Life


Birth, Ageing, Sickness, Death

None of us can escape from the above. My grandma passed away on last Wednesday at 12:30pm sharp, after 30 mins into coma, died her eldest son's arm. It was quite a sudden death, she had been sick, then totally recovered then coma....

Everyone said she had a good life, she died at the age of 100 yrs old, with 5 generations of decendents at her funeral. Yes, after my grandma, there are 5 generations of us, I am the 2nd generation. So you can imagine how many people were at the funeral.

When I got the news, I wasn't very upset, I felt normal. I mean to me, my grandma already lost the quality of life, she couldnt remember anyone, she sat in the wheelchair everyday, no control of her bowel. Sometimes I think it may be better that she is finally 'set free'. The only thing that I was upset about was that I didn't get to say sorry to her for always quarreling with her when I was younger. When I was back in Malaysia, I made an effort to visit her, sometimes I wanted to say sorry but she no longer remember me. To her, I was just another person who brought her food.

My grandma and I used to fight like cats and dogs, everyone know my grandma would know that she wasn't an easy person to live with. However, no matter how much I hated her, I always make sure she had food to eat and bring her to the doctor whenever she was illed. I might not be the best grandchild, but I was not the worst.

Rest in Peace granny.... I never really hated you

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Words of Wisdom



Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Farked Up

I have been wanting to blog for days but I have no idea if I want to write down what happened within the past few days. Many things happened and I have to say nothing was pleasant.

I have no idea what is wrong with my life, seems like God thinks my life is pretty boring so he is putting alot of challenges on me. These challenges drained me out, lucky it was a long weekend, I could stay at home and not to see anyone.

The dating scene has gone terribly wrong, I guess I wont see anyone anymore, not at least in the next few months. Maybe I shall just wait till my mom wants to match make me with some guys from Malaysia so that I will move back to Malaysia.

My sis commented that I always go for the wrong guys, er.. hello?! Who does these days? Human beings tend to be attracted to things they never experienced... oh well

A guy lied to me, I am pissed, I really want to find out the story behind and I knew I could find out if I want to. Then... I started to think "Do I really want to know the truth?". Nothing happened between us, but what he did just pissed me off. I am also afraid the truth will hurt me more.

Seems like a cycle now, when I dont want commitment, God will send a superb guy with slight freakyness, then when I think I am ready for commitment, God send me a devil..... Thank you Dude!